I wish i lived a life of meaning or purpose.
so i did a thousand fucking tests at the e.r. including a cat scan today. after all the pain i have been going through in the past three weeks.. they found nothing. nothing wrong that they can see. so they dont have any treatment option except for seeing a doc that specializes in stomach issues. i dont know how long that will take to get in to see the specialist. on top of that shit they wont give...
i have a fire lit inside of me it feels like.=(
blazin as much as i can force down my lungs and up into the air, before my ride to the e.r. shows up. i need relief. fuuucckk
refused the ambulance.. waiting on my ride…
dreams n dreams n dreams
So much pain last night… slept for a couple hours though. trying to get to the docs as soon as possible without going to the emergency room. i really hope they can help me there.
waited all day to smoke so my tolerance would go down a lil. hopefully this will help my physical pains. if not then at least take my mind off em for a lil.. we’ll see i guess.
i wish i knew where i stand with you. not knowing gives me so much anxiety. its dumb.